First post after few years

It's been a while since i wrote down my feelings here.
2019 is almost end.Next year will be 2020.The year that everyone thought cars will no longer be on the road but in the air.Well, fuck that.
I'll be 30 next year.
Lucky for me, now my girlfriend is my wife.
I got 3 boys and a girl who just born last July.
How lucky i am? To be honest, i feel like I'm the luckiest person on earth.
I don't have a lot of money but i got a business with my good friends.Since my school time i have an ambition to not be working under any bosses till the rest of my life.And now, i got what i want.
Next year is where I need to start changing myself to be a role model for my kids.
My oldest, who is now 7 yo is already started to 'wants to be like Daddy'.So I need to be the best man i can be.My second son, will start his school next year.I hope his teachers can tolerate with his funny attitudes.
I don't write for a long time now and one day,my wife sent me a screenshot of my blog saying she missed reading my blog/thoughts.
So today, i try to get my self back into writing.
I hope i can do this as often as i can so when I'm gone, at least they can read what I left here.
So that's it for now.I'll write again later.
Thank you if you still reading my blog.
I hope you are having a good life.
Ciao!

is it hard?

Does it really hard to satisfied your heart,my love?

I've tried everything to make you smile all the time but I've failed everytime I try.

I know that I'm not the best but I'm trying to be the best for you.

I've soft my words,my voice,my moves towards you.

I tried to stop all my bad habits.

I try to work hard for our future.

But there's always one little small thing that will make you mad at me.

I'm really sorry for my imperfection.

But i want you to know,I love you with all my heart.

All My Heart

boopity bippity boo

no matter how much times goes by you'll always be by my side.

cause i couldn't stop loving u even if i tried !

i said i loved you 

but baby i lied,

bcuz there's more that love i feel inside.

i said i loved you but i think i was wrong because there's no way love could

'f e e l t h i s s t r o n g'.

i love you more than words can show.

i think about you more than you could ever know.

now until forever this will be true because there's

no one i could ever love

.. as much as i love you .. 

you gave me your up's and when i was feelin down.

you gave me your smiles when i began to frown.

you gave me your arms when i needed a hug.

you gave me your heart when i needed someone to love.

The End

you the one i dream of at night.

you the one who holds me tight.

you the one who's true to me.

together forever we will be. 

look in my eyes n tell me what you see

cuz when i'm staring into yours

i see my whole world ahead of me.

i look at you and i realize just

how much you've been a part of my life.

how special you are
and
 how much you've 

made me happy.
i look at you and i realize 

that heaven must be missing an angel.

i don't care
how many lips you've kissed

or
how many hands you've held. 

all i care
is not to be your first but your last.

.alittlebitofme.

 just when i felt like giving up on us.
you turned around and gave me one last touch.

that's made everything feel better.and even then my eyes got wetter.

 so confused, when i asked you if you love me. 

you held my hand so tight and whisper to my ears that's 

'you will never leave me till the end of this sweet dream'
"trust my words,cuz it's the only way to tell you that i need you more than you ever think"  

sleep

watch you're sleeping is the best time in a day of my life.

everyday i can't wait to watch you sleep.

it makes me realize how lucky i am to have you by my side.

i wish this thing between you and me,will last forever.

and i will fight for it to remained together till my last breathe.

sleep well my dear.

i'll be by your side when you wake up.

i'll hug you to keep you warm.

don't you worry about anything when you're with me.

because i'll make sure you're safe by my side.